You are so good all day, eating all the right things. You say no to the cupcakes at the office. You spend most of the day feeling great and in control of your eating. And then you get home and everything unravels. Something happens, and you don't know what it is, but suddenly you need to eat. You start and you can't stop. You feel terribly full and uncomfortable afterward, and get frustrated with yourself repeatedly overeating. To make up for it, you're really "good" the next day - you skip breakfast, go to the gym, and eat a healthy lunch and dinner. Yet somehow soon after you find yourself bingeing again, and the same cycle repeats itself over again.
You've always had it "together." You excelled academically. You landed a great job where you're respected for your hard work. If only you could stop fixating on food, maybe you'd have everything you wanted - the perfect body, a successful relationship, and other markers of success. If only you were a size X, if the number on the scale were lower, if you were thinner. If only all of these things were different, everything would be fine. But it's never fine, and you're exhausted. Why, you often ask yourself, does food and eating have to be so complicated?
Eating disorders are varied and complex in nature, and impact people of backgrounds, genders and sizes. Eating disorders create feelings of shame, worthlessness and helplessness. Though it may not feel like it right now, your relationship with food and your body can improve. Let's talk more to see how us working together might help you.